Could everyone else see it too? I watched fisting porn in a parking lot in my car many years ago and it scared me. This random stranger tore through the veil and saw what I truly was. It's true that I sometimes have passionate moments of intensity that feel like submission, but who's to say if they're real? Most of the time, I feel like an imposter. 'You're another pretender.' How did he know? Yes, I am a fake. 'Then you're not a real submissive,' he said. I can't remember what it was - gut-punching or domestic service, maybe - but I told him no, thank you. Some months ago - just before World Pride New York City - I was messaging a dominant on this site who wanted something I wasn't interested in. In this article he writes about the fact that you're the only one who defines what you are. Alexander Cheves – sweetbeastly on Recon - is a sex and relationships writer, editor, and artist.
